I've been combating an overwhelming feeling of being lost recently. Which isn't so different from usual, but it tends to come to a head at certain points which causes me to look for significant changes that I can make in my life to "fix" things, or at least put myself closer to the right path.
Wants:
A bikable work commute (less than 4 miles w/no bus).
A job that I care about.
A communal house with hippie/good friend/women housemates, a yard for my dog, an organic garden, a large garage, and a quirky, rambling aesthetic.
So, issue #1 to fix, is the job.
Problems with the job: lack of meaning. wrong culture (too conservative). not flexible enough. not enough vacation time
Solutions: Working in Environmental Restoration? Urban Gardening (how do I go about this?). I specifically want to work on physically restoring the environment. Also, urban community building around gardening and volunteering. Community building and environmental activism/policy work.
The path: volunteer with People for Puget Sound as much as possible.
Important lifestyle bits: Spending less money = more vacation time. buying the Mazda Protege was possibly the dumbest thing I have ever done. no way out of it now? I could sell the thing. just sell it. Or trade for a motorcycle? or a truck?
Bike everywhere. Tap into urban gardening community? Think of ways to build urban community, ala communal public spaces, restoration volunteering, home landscaping & gardening. But how do I go about all of this? I do I go about following this path?
Friday, March 13, 2009
Thursday, January 8, 2009
starting out
ok, so this is my first post. I've been feeling sort of overwhelmed recently. A couple months ago, I was depressed because there wasn't enough excitement in my life. Now there may be more than I can handle.
General Projects / Activities I am currently engaged in:
point83 - this is lots of fun. partying and riding bikes.
adopting Una - a wonderful mutt who makes me happy. I wish I could devote more time to her.
volunteering with People for Puget Sound - generally doing photo projects right now. this is fun, and will hopefully lead to some connections for paid work in conservation/restoration/sustainable construction/sustainable energy.
Construction Management Certificate at UW Extention Program. I actually really like both my classes this semester, and am interested in the classwork. Construction Scheduling and Construction Safety. Right now I'm a bit overwhelmed by the time commitment this homework will require.
Moving. I'm moving this week, and it' fucking up my whole Chi. In general, I feel really positive about the move, and I like my new housemates, there's just so much to do to make this house Una-friendly (er).
I've been having a huge amount of trouble staying focused at work recently (e.i. writing here during the work day), and have considered going back to Ritalin use. I have a hard time taking this idea seriously though, because of the long list of side effects I've experienced in the past.
Pros:
increased concentration at work.
increased energy and clarity at work ( really? )
general increase in my career success
increased energy (?)
wight loss
Cons:
huge increase in neurotic OCD habbits
insomnia
weight loss
eventual depression (?)
emotionally erratic (?)
lowered libido
I should look into it though, they may have improved the quality of the drug in the 7 years since I've taken it.
General Projects / Activities I am currently engaged in:
point83 - this is lots of fun. partying and riding bikes.
adopting Una - a wonderful mutt who makes me happy. I wish I could devote more time to her.
volunteering with People for Puget Sound - generally doing photo projects right now. this is fun, and will hopefully lead to some connections for paid work in conservation/restoration/sustainable construction/sustainable energy.
Construction Management Certificate at UW Extention Program. I actually really like both my classes this semester, and am interested in the classwork. Construction Scheduling and Construction Safety. Right now I'm a bit overwhelmed by the time commitment this homework will require.
Moving. I'm moving this week, and it' fucking up my whole Chi. In general, I feel really positive about the move, and I like my new housemates, there's just so much to do to make this house Una-friendly (er).
I've been having a huge amount of trouble staying focused at work recently (e.i. writing here during the work day), and have considered going back to Ritalin use. I have a hard time taking this idea seriously though, because of the long list of side effects I've experienced in the past.
Pros:
increased concentration at work.
increased energy and clarity at work ( really? )
general increase in my career success
increased energy (?)
wight loss
Cons:
huge increase in neurotic OCD habbits
insomnia
weight loss
eventual depression (?)
emotionally erratic (?)
lowered libido
I should look into it though, they may have improved the quality of the drug in the 7 years since I've taken it.
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